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Had a big war with baby this morning & was feeling very down when i'm at work. The feeling damn sucks & i really hate it. Tears just automatically roll down by itself. Just couldn't control myself. WTF! Almost ended this r/s & this time i really make up my mind. I also don't know why suddenly become like that. Maybe is because he behave like the past again. Don't bother & care about me anymore. I hate to see him treating me like nothing. Do i really stand a place in his heart? Only he knows. Didn't eat anything for the whole half day. No appetite. Just feel very sad. Well, i wrote a very long message to him & it consist of 11 pages. Telling him how i feel & what had exactly happen. But it seems that he still don't understand what it means or don't even bother to know? Until now, finally i know that i'm such a materilistic women in his heart. If i'm really is, i already leave him long ago why should i still stay at his side till now? Am i such a loose women in his heart? Hais, i just coundn't bear to leave him no matter how good / bad he treat me. I still couldn't give up. I still choose to return by his side. Did he ever cherish this r/s? Do he really love me or just want to fool around with me? Have he ever appreciate the things i did for him? I don't know. I really don't know.
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